My god I'm low right now.
One minute I want to fight, the next I want to jump. I don't know what to do. The way I see it, no matter which I choose, I'll likely lose everything anyway.
I've always tried hard to do the right thing but right now, I don't know what that is.
Sorry it didn't work out.
Hello there.
I am not sure if I'm being over sensitive, but all does not seem well in my head again.
It's the same time of year but without the same number of stresses. This time, I'm only aware of one thing which is bothering me. It's to do with my voluntary role and I can't be any more difficult than that unfortunately.
Christmas this year is coming in three parts. The first this weekend with my immediate family. Christmas Day with my wife's family, then boxing Day with my family and children again. I'm working a night shift on new years eve.
Yesterday I booked us a few nights away in a lodge in the middle of nowhere. We go on the 2nd January and that is very much my focus at the moment. That break, the relaxation, the detachment from society. I need that at the moment.
I don't know what made me come back here. I don't know if I'll be back again.
