A Bit Of A Whirl

The last few days seem to have been a bit of a whirl.  

We had my children with us at the weekend and it was lovely. I got to see my eldest (pregnant) daughter for the first time this year.  I'm really impressed with her positive outlook regarding the pregnancy. She's completely drained of energy and is forever being sick, but still she keeps smiling. I'm very proud.

I spent time playing darts with my eldest son on Saturday night. We have a playroom at home, in which we have a dartboard.  He's a good player and I really enjoyed the time spent with him.  He tends not to let his emotions show but being his dad, I generally know when he's happy - and he was happy on Saturday.

I'm really struggling to sleep at the moment. I feel a bit like I'm back where I was a fortnight ago, before I started taking the prescribed sleeping medication.  A side effect of the depression medication is insomnia. I've been taking it for over a week now and have probably had 2 nights where I've slept through.  I feel like I'm slipping and look forward to discussing this with my GP this coming week.

On the plus side, I had a call from the counselling people today. They're going to see me tomorrow to asses my needs.  I feel worried about this because now that the depression medication has properly kicked in, I feel kind of numb when it comes to emotions.  I'll just be honest about how I feel and see how it goes.

My friend visited me yesterday. He drove all the way from Blackpool to spend a few hours with me at the local pub. We played pool and chatted for ages. He just wanted to make sure I was ok. I felt so humbled by this gesture and I will forever be grateful to him for that.

Speaking of grateful, I have just remembered I told myself I'd do 5 things a day that I was grateful for.

1. I am grateful for my son waking up happy this morning. We had such a lovely time together before I took him to school today.
2. I am grateful for bending and stretching. I've done a lot of that today whilst painting a wall.
3. I am grateful for people wanting my opinion. I've been to school today in my capacity as a governor to meet a prospective new governor and it was very good.

I'm done. My head is too fuzzy tonight.  

Goodbye